i've created this blog to just vent. to breathe with words. to let it all out. no restraints, no censorship. all me.
at this moment i am extremely overwhelmed with life. church,work, boyfriend, family, friends. it never ends. i wouldn't trade it for anything in the world. i've been very resilient in terms of life this year. i've progressed and made everything that was once "all bad", "alright". i'm still confused. yet to figure out where i'm going or what i'm doing. i've been finding my way for so long so the idea of [planning] seems foreign to me. i'm so wrapped up in the [now]. should i focus on my present being or pepare for what will BE ME. i cant say that i am currently at a state of happiness. i mean, i am happy but not whole-heartedly. it seems as though there will always be a draining, baneful aura to certain situations in my life. my next obstacle at hand will be removing them [this ever-present people, feelings, situations]
from my life. one at a time. i must learn to embrace myself.
embrace who i am, embrace what i love and be me. find myself, learn myself but most importantly, i need to make myself.
