Happy Birthday To ME!

This glorious day is my Birthday people. 23 years ago today I was born. I'm actually having a good birthday even though I am working :( Tonight, I will be getting bestie tattoo's with my best friend..hehehe. Tomorrow morning i plan on getting my nails done bright and early. going to my lil' sisters gymnastics class, going to get my hair done, buying a new digital camera and THEN...i'll be getting ready for my PARTAY at this lovely place. I'm so excited. My boyfriend/Best Friend have truly outdone themselves with this birthday. I'm so blessed.

The END!

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hey y'all. i've been in some sort of funk lately. can't quite put my finger on what is making me feel blue but, it's bad. then i found out some really disturbing news about a family member and everything just got worse. i'm trying to understand why these sorta things happen. i just don't get it.

on another note, i just finished the bag of Reese's Peanut Butter Eggs i bought myself for Easter. Yes, i said BAG..lol. not smart seeing as how my birthday party is this weekend and i will be attending in this dress. yea..not smart.

i've recently discovered that there is a Red Mango near my job. I stumbled upon it yesterday so i had it for dinner :) Yes, i did, with strawberries and mochi and it was amazing. i love this place.

anywho, that's all for now. yes, i know i'm boring

i'm kinda pissed

i'm really confused and if i'm missing something, please pardon my ignorance. this morning Senator Obama gave a speech regarding the behavior/comments/beliefs of his Pastor Jeremiah Wright and racism in general. what prompted this speech was the recent buzz of the comments made by Pastor Wright.

forgive me for not understanding why it is important for Senator Obama to give a speech regarding the remarks & beliefs of his pastor. correct me if i'm wrong; it is Barack Obama who is running for president, right? we have all DISAGREED with someone; whether it be a parent, teacher, spouse, friend, co-worker...whomever. we've all been there. and sometimes we may even disagree with the beliefs of our pastor [i personally have never disagreed with mine :)] why is it that this man has to address the nation about things that he never said?! i just don't get it. yes, the things Pastor Wright said were disturbing and yes he lacked good judgment by saying these things but let's get one thing straight; he is a Pastor, he has large congregation, the people that come to his church WANT to hear him preach. They are aware that they may not always hear what they like but ministering is his calling and that is what he does. No one is forced to attend any of his services. Those who are in attendance are there simply because they want to be there and they feel as though they SHOULD be there. In my opinion he can say whatever he wants to his congregation. I'm pretty sure upon making the remarks he made, he had no idea that they would be used against Senator Obama. i think people should be more concerned if Senator Obama didn't belong to a church, if he didn't have a close relationship with his Pastor, if he NEVER attended church. instead, we lay the burden of what his Pastor said at his feet. We have governors running prostitution rings yet we find it necessary to attack a presidential candidate because of comments his Pastor made? give me a break. people need to really get their minds right. enough is enough. can the man just run for President?

brit brit

she looks soooo goood! let's hope she turns it all around (and gets a better weave..sorry..i had to)

thoughts

did you know that the word of God will tell you your future? if you study the word of Christ it will manifest in your soul and it will change you. when you love the word of God and make it your priority God will convince you of who you are. no one will be able to take your identity away from you.

let me just say, my pastor is incredible. how can you repay someone who teaches you so much?! i had a terrible migraine this weekend so i couldn't even pull myself out of bed to get to church. because our my church is oh so cool, i just watched our 11am sunday service online and lemme just say it was marvelous as always.

i'm really tired. this has been a tough week for me. last night was a tough night. i probably got about 3 hours of sleep total. and i drove 2 hours to work, worked a 10 hour day and now i'm bloggin'.

Psalm 107:20: He sent his word and healed them, and delivered them from their destruction.

i will think of this verse on those nights when i just feel too tired to read my bible. i need to be convinced of who i am and the only way that will happen is if i continue to study His word.

prayer request

hey guys! hope everyone is having a great day! i have a favor..please say a quick prayer for me if you think about it today. aside from all the drama i explained below; i've just recently applied for another job at a different studio that will allow me to go back to school. i'm very apprehensive and unsure of myself. I really don't know if i'm ready for the position but i'm willing to give it all i got. so i'd really appreciate a quick prayer. thanks!

bad news

about 4 weeks ago i moved in with my new roomies. two of which are sisters and the other is one of the sisters best friend. i love it. i kinda feel like i live in a sorority house. i get along with the girls great and although i thought i wouldn't i immediately felt "at home". Upon moving in i was told that the mother of the two sisters owns the home along with her business partner and the sisters occupy the home and rent out the extra rooms. Within these past few weeks there have been some bumps in the road but i figured..hey..this is new for me i need some adjusting. so, i will explain the "interruptions" in order of occurence:

1) the very first night i moved in one of my roomies told me that her brother was going to be staying here for a little while because he was in transition from one school to another. the kid's 15 he has his own room on the other side of the house so i said to myself "no problem, he won't really be in my way".

2)after being here for about 4 days i realize that my roomies mother has been sleeping on the couch every night. I don't mention it..after all it's not my house. My roomie explains to me that the mother and her boyfriend got into a huge fight..within a week he kicked her out (of the home they own together) and has since moved someone else in. My roomie tells me her mom will be here for two weeks while she finds an apartment in a neighborhood close by. Meanwhile, i start chatting with the mom one day and she tells me that she will be staying here for TWO months while she looks to buy a home. ok, again no biggie. kinda annoying as i didn't know i would be living with so many people but ok whatever.

3) the VERY night that i move in i'm told that our water heater is broken. great. so what does that mean? all 6 of us will be using the shower on the other side of the house. i've never shared a bathroom with one person let alone 5. i was told that the water heater would be replaced that weekend. it is now 4 weeks and 1 day later and we're still showering in one bathroom.

4)i was making a sandwich the other day and notice a letter on the counter right next to me. for some reason the word FORECLOSURE just jumped at me. i immediately dropped my sandwich grabbed the letter and went to my room. sure enough...the later states that the house i'm now living in is in FORECLOSURE and the amount past due is $14,000+. I immediately imagined coming home to a huge padlock on my door not being able to retrieve my belongings. i'm pissed, i'm irritated. i don't wanna call my dad because he sensed some shadiness from the beginning and i really don't want to hear i told you say right now. i think to myself...ok what am i gonna do? how do i tell them that i know without telling them that i read the mail? so, i come up with a plan...i told a white lie (i've already asked the Lord for his forgiveness). I told one of the sisters that while i was waiting around for the cable company i spotted a man looking in her window and mine (which is true, this really did happen)this is where the lie comes to play,i told her that he knocked on the door and told me he wanted to check the house out as it was in FORECLOSURE. i asked her if i should start looking for a place and you know what she tells me? she tells me that her mom's business partner doesn't want to have anything to do with the house so he's not paying the mortgage and her sister is going to re-buy the house so i have no need to worry. ummmmm excuse me...i may be young but does it look like i have idiot written across my forehead? i'm a smart cookie i'm smart enough to know that's not how it works. i'm just really irritated. although my least is month to month..i did think i'd be here longer. i recall when i first moved in i found a note from the previous tenants that said something about when you get the money please mail my deposit to this address..blah blah blah..so i'm now afraid that i'll have a problem getting my deposit back and these are all just issues i do not feel like dealing with..really...i don't. but...i have faith in the Lord and i know this is part of his amazingly divine plan for my life. i'm learning alot and more than anything i'm becoming extremely independent and much much more smarter. i do need to be more aware of things and if something doesn't feel right...it's probably not right. i never know when it's my women's intuition and when it's just me worrying way to much...ahhhh...i just had to get that all out. that's it from me today. i saw this quote today on someones blog and it's very fitting right now....

Thank God for what you have. Trust God for what you need.

reality

today, i was smacked in the face with a dose of reality. this is what i read in my daily devotional:

"You should be a light for other people.Live so that they will see the good things you do and will praise your Father in heaven" MATTHEW 5:16.

You want to make a difference in your world? Live a holy life.

i need to be the employee who does the work and doesn't complain. i need to pay my bills. i need to do my part and enjoy life. i need to make sure that i do no speak one message yet live another. can i get an amen?! people watch the way we act more than they listen to what we say. so very, very true.