absence

apologies for my lack of blogging. i've been extremely busy. it's CHRISTmas! i've been shopping and celebrating and doing all sorts of cheerful stuff..lol. i've also been really busy @ work..but eh..that's the norm these days. i had a wonderful weekend. my girls and i did our gift exchange last night and that was a huge success. we rarely have the opportunity to get together as a group. someone is always missing but last night it was all five of us and we had a great time. on another note, God has been so good to me this past week it's amazing! i've been put to the test financially, emotionally and physically. my faith in the Lord has allowed me to not be fearful, to not be upset. i can accept anything that is brought in my direction because i know that it is God's will. i was just telling my mother that this time two years ago was the worst time of my life. so much was going on and i had no control over my own life. i remember new years of 2006. i rang it in at church. well, at this time i wasn't a born again christian. i was simply attending the service because my boyfriends family was going. but i felt good about being there. i felt good about starting my year off at church. i just knew the Lord was going to bless me because unlike my friends who were out partying, drinking, having a grand ol' time, i was at church. little did i know the I was at church because the Lord wanted me to get ready for the rocky road i had ahead of me. he gave me a dose of penicillin because he knew that year ahead of me was not gonna be nice. i had everything taken away from me, my home, my parents, my car, the life that i had known was gone! not once did i call on the Lord, not once did i go to church, not once did i think to myself...wow..this would be a whole lot easier if you opened your heart and let the Lord in. instead i fought my battles by myself. another year passed and 2007 was here. again, it wasn't a great year for me. it started of pretty bad. i had so much turmoil around me, at work, at home with friends, with family it was horrible. about 6 months ago i became a born again christian. it became quite evident that i needed the Lord in my life. it became quite evident to me that i cannot live my life alone. i need Jesus to walk beside me, to carry me and guide me because i am truly lost without him and his word. So this shall be the year for me 2008 baby! because this time i have the Lord in my life. The penicillin that he gave me 2 years ago is no longer needed. i'm well, i'm cured. he's a constant in my life. i know that without him nothing is possible but through him and with him ALL is possible. So you better believe i will be starting this year off right. 6 months as a born again christian and already so much change, so much goodness has come into my life! it is truly unbelievable but the change is evident. everyone around me can see. i know that others (like my boyfriend) who just need a lil' pushing will come to the Lord because the change they see in me. not that i was a bad person before. of course not. i just appreciate everything so much more. it's truly a beautiful thing. i thank my pastors Mel & Desiree Ayres and my church staff. they have impacted my life so much without even knowing. it is truly an amazing thing!!! on that note....i must go. i have much to do and not much time. i need to go to the mall and do some shopping. i'm almost done! i just have mom, dad, and my boyfriends parents left and then i'm done yay!