There is entirely way too much going on in my life right now. I feel like I'm going to explode!! and why is it that I always have to blame someone?! Someone has to be the reason why all of this is happening or someone has to be the reason why this can't be fixed, quick. That is probably the #1 thing I hate about myself. Please pray for me. I need it.

What pissed me off this week?

hmmm let's see, my stupid ass blackberry decides to break. The track ball is not working therefore I cannot use my phone to text, email, bbm or anything. I can only make phone calls on the damn thing and that's pretty lame. I have insurance but if I'm going to pay $150.00 for a replacement Curve that I bought damn near two years ago I might as well get a new phone. The only phones on my want list right now are the Blackberry Storm or the Iphone. Tmobile is not a carrier for either of the two phones. So, I might just jump to AT&T.

Not only is my phone broken but the charger broke A G A I N. I have a really high bed and I always charge the phone right next to my bed on my bedside table. Someone called me really late last night and I just left the phone on the bed. At some point during my wild slumber the phone fell and it must have landed wrong and the USB thingy broke.

I ordered boots online and rec'd a size 6 when I ordered a size 9. wtf?! not only did it take a week for me to receive the damn boots but then they send me the wrong size. I call them and apparently in order for them to ship out a new pair, I have to buy a new pair and once they receive the wrong pair, they will issue a credit to my credit card. In short, I paid $186.00 twice for a pair of boots that I do not have. And I probably won't receive the credit or the damn boots until next week.

That last incident probably irritated me the most. I know these are all minor things and it could be a lot worse but damn, can i get a break, puhhllease?!

There is something good to report though, I'm listening to my Tony!Toni!Tone! station on Pandora and i la la looove it! lol.

decisions, decisions

Why is it that sometimes the things/people that you want so bad are the very things/people that are just bad for you?

Why is that you sometimes have no control over the very things that take place in your life; the very things that affect you the most?

Why is that we tend to let our fears stifle us from moving forward?

Why is that when we do finally move forward and we look back, we oftentimes wonder what took us so long in the first place?

I wish I had a crystal ball. I wish i could just see the future and what it will be. I wish I knew the right decision to make and I wish I would just make it and be done with it (for good). I wish I could make decisions solely based on what's logical versus making emotional decisions. Sometimes it is truly hard to have faith.

All about Bronchitis

Guess who isn't in Palm Springs because she has Bronchitis? Yours truly! Out of all the weekends to be plagued with this nastiness, it had to be this weekend right? No fear, I will be getting a massage @ Burke Williams tomorrow which is sorta like Palm Springs right? bwahahaa yea right. I'm now trying to make light of the situation but it really does suck. my poor boyfriend :(