30 Weeks and some random stuff

Well, hello 30 weeks, nice to meet ya chunky arms!

Wow, that's all I can say. I snapped this picture before heading off to work today. Look at those arms. I previously complained about my buff arms and now the buffness has disappeared amongst the chubness. Funny, Funny. **I just looked at the picture and almost cried. I didn't realize how skinny I was before I started housing another human in my belly! Also, please excuse the messy counter top and disheveled towels. This is what happens when you wake up 15 mins before you're supposed to leave for work.

I have tons of things to accomplish this weekend. I have an appointment with my Doc at 3:30pm this afternoon. Then I'm having an early dinner with a girlfriend at this place.

Tomorrow I have a sample sale at 5am. Plan to hit up a couple of malls to find a dress for my baby shower. Need to take my pup for part 2 of her 3 part vaccination. Then I'm picking up the cute lil' girl pictured below. She lost both of her teeth! I think it's the cutest thing EVER. Sunday I have tons of crap to do and it's Father's Days! Okay, I'm lazy, enough with this post.

And just because she's cute, here's my adorable Juicy girl. Why didn't anyone tell me I'd fall madly in love with this dog?! Ahhhh, she's the best.

What are YOU reading?

For some reason, within the last month or so I've been reading like crazy. I even checked out our local library, got a card and checked out some books!! That's huge for me. I typically buy books, read them once, and toss them in the closet. So, I wanted to ask you internets, what are you reading? Have you read anything good lately? Anything I should read? I am currently reading The Poisonwood Bible by Barbara Kingslover and I cannot put it down. I'm almost done though so I'm looking for some others. I heard The Help by Kathryn Stockett is also a great read so, I might check that out as well.

I'm behind on my Preggo survey, yes I know - I suck. I really don't like blogging from home. Maybe I would If I had more time or if I didn't have the most adorable dog ever to play with.

I'm definitely feeling pregnant though! I am now officially in my 7 month. I feel like time is just flying by. I cannot believe how fast this pregnancy has flown by. I still remember taking that first pregnancy test. I remember my first ultrasound and I remember when we found out we were having a girl and I was just 14 weeks! Where has the time gone?!?!

As time quickly dwindles down, I find myself getting more anxious, more nervous, more scared. I cannot believe that in less than 3 months, I will meet my daughter face to face. Part of me secretly wishes I would just stay pregnant forever. It's silly - I know. But it's so true.

I've had a wonderful pregnancy. No complications (other than the minor scare at the very beginning) no morning sickness, no sickness at all really. I've felt pretty good throughout my entire pregnancy and I thank God for that. I am now hitting that uncomfortable phase. It hurts to bend over. It takes quite a bit of work to get out of bed, or off the couch or even out of the car for that matter. My hips are starting to ache throughout the night and I find that I'm constantly flipping from one side to the other. Avery has positioned herself right above my bladder so I now feel the need to pee not once, not twice, but three times before I leave the house! We went to pick up Chipotle for dinner last night and every single time we made our way to the door I would stop and say "hold on, I have to go again". This morning at 3am I woke up because my belly was itching like crazy (still no stretch marks, yay!). I got up, stubbed my toe on the bed went to the bathroom and slathered my belly with oil, without turning the light on. If that's not determination, I don't know what is. I'm determined to stay stretch mark free!

At any rate, it's all starting to sink in that we've reach the end so to speak. We're in our final trimester. I'm seriously amazed, honored and thrilled. God chose me to be Avery's mom. The thought of that gives me chills and makes my eyes water.

Anyway, that is not what this post was supposed to be about. I just wanted to know what book to read. lol. Back to work I go.

xoxo

Big news..literally

So two BIG things happened to me recently. I had my 26 week appt. last week and I have now gained a total of 20lbs. I'm not even 7 months pregnant and I've gained 20lbs!!! Some women gain 20lbs throughout their entire pregnancy. I don't know what's going on. Unfortunately my appt. was not with my Doctor. I had to reschedule and the soonest available appt. was with another doctor. He didn't put me on a strict diet or anything but he did advise me to slow down. I really don't know why/how I am gaining so much weight. It's crazy. I definitely noticed a difference. A couple of non-maternity jeans that were fitting two weeks ago suddenly don't fit anymore. I'm totally okay with the weight gain. I don't think I look too bad. Sometimes I do feel huge but I'm always being told that I'm all belly. I definitely can tell that I am not all belly but I guess you'd have to see me naked or in underwear or a bathing suit to really see the difference and Lord knows I will not be putting on a bathing suit anytime soon. I haven't been great with exercising. I completely stopped when I found out I was pregnant because during my first trimester I didn't have the energy to do ANYTHING. I pretty much just walk now and I will occasionally pop in my pregnancy yoga DVD. After last weeks visit I have decided to hop on the treadmill again. I will of course take it easy and listen to my body but I think I need to step up my physical activity a tad bit. I refuse to "diet" while I'm pregnant. I don't think it's necessary. I'm not a horrible eater and I don't think I overindulge at all. I hoped to gain no more than 30lbs during this pregnancy but it looks like that's not going to happen :( I'm totally okay with the weight gain though. I lose weight pretty quickly and I'm fattening up for the most precious gift ever and that is totally fine by me.

Here I am at 26 weeks. I was in the middle of cleaning the bathroom so ignore the toilet paper roll and the frizzy hair. Next time I'm going to take a picture of my thighs so you can see the real weight gain ;)

In other news, I came home on Tuesday night to this lil' cutie. Meet the newest member of our family. Juicy! I am in l o v e with this precious pup. She's such a good puppy. She's a Lhasa Apso and she's 5 months old.

My bf's aunt purchased a male (his name is Lucky) from the same litter a little over a month ago and I wouldn't shut up about him. I really wanted a dog but wasn't too sure about the timing considering our daughter will be here in approximately 13 weeks but, I figure it would be harder to add a pup into the mix once she has made her arrival. We've only had two accidents so far and I think that's pretty good considering the fact that she is trying to adapt to an entirely different environment. She hasn't had her shots yet so the bf is taking care of that this afternoon and then lil' Miss Juicy will be heading straight to the groomers for a nice haircut and some pretty pink bows!

So, there's the big news. I'm getting fat and we got a puppy! lol. Seriously though, life has been great lately. I couldn't ask for anything more. I feel so blessed. I'm constantly thinking to myself "okay, something bad is going to happen, things have just been TOO good lately". I have got to stop it with that. I'm still looking for a church in OC. I haven't found one yet but I am determined to find a place that feels like home. Keep me in your prayers yall.

xoxo

"Just living is not enough...One must have sunshine, freedom, and a little flower."-- Hans Christian Andersen.

I had to go to the DMV this morning (big whommpp) but it allowed me to spend some time out of the office and in the sun this morning. The weather is so beautiful today. I stopped at a lil' cafe, had some coffee, sent some emails and just relaxed. I was two hours late but I could not resist. The sun was shining, there was a slight breeze and the temperature was just perfect. I so did not want to come to work.

I love days like this.

Hope you all have a great weekend!

xo

Seen any good movies lately?

With the upcoming award shows, I've been talking about nothing but movies. I took advantage of all my free time during the Holiday's and saw several great movies. I have yet to see Slumdog Millionaire and The Reader . Maybe I'll get around to it this weekend. Here's what I did manage to see though....

Seven Pounds was awesome. Definitely showcased what an amazingly versatile actor Will Smith is. I think the concept of the movie was genius and I don't know if any of you saw it but, I thought it was really sad. At the same time it was extremely sweet and romantic. I always knew that Rosario Dawson was beautiful but she's just g o r g e o u s in this movie.

Revolutionary Road was insane! DO NOT go see this movie if you're down in the dumps, that's forsure. This movie is most certainly not a feel good movie but it is so damn good. Kate Winslett and Leonardo DiCaprio are great together. Their chemistry is great and this movie was captivating. Definitely not a happy ending but it's very good.

The Curious Case of Benjamin Button...such a precious movie. I'm sure most of you have seen it. My bf complained about it being too long but he's a guy and he was hungry and sleepy so his opinion doesn't matter. It was long in the beginning but it was well worth it so I didn't mind. All in all it was a very sweet story. Oh, and Taraji Hensen was also great in this movie. I just love her.

Changeling was another great film. I cried and cried and felt so sorry for Angelina Jolie's character. The fact that this is a true story just made me cry harder. Again, not a good ending but still a great movie. I've been told it's hard to watch certain movies once you become a parent and this would probably be one of those movies.

I attempted to watch Valkyrie but fell asleep within the first 10 mins so I can't give you my opinion on that one. If I remember correctly there wasn't very much dialogue in the beginning but maybe I'm wrong. At any rate, I didn't like the first 20 mins if that means anything.

I forgot to mention earlier that I also would like to see Milk and Doubt too. I honestly cannot believe that I haven't seen Milk yet because i love me some Sean Penn. Don't judge me! You know he's one sexy man :)

So maybe I'll get around to seeing two more movies this weekend. Hope you all have a great one.

xo

and so it begins

the Christmas shopping..dun..dun..dun!!! Yes, I'm one of those people who has waited till the very last minute. I picked up things here and there and some people are done like my dad and well, I guess just my dad. lol. I scratched the biggest gift off my list last night. This my friends, is what I bought my boyfriend. It was on sale, he needs it and I wanna beat him on the gift giving thing this year. He better love it (I know he will) and I better marry his arse one day. lol. I seriously considered keeping it and cleaning up the one I got for Christmas last year and giving him that. haha! then I remembered I want a macbook anyway so he can have the Vaio.

Tonight I'm picking up my sister and doing some shopping. Tomorrow more shopping and dinner at P6 and sunday bf/gf time. I haven't seen my bf in FOREVER! Last years Christmas I just knew we'd be living together for this Christmas...ummm..yea...not so much. Which makes me realize, things in my life never, ever go the way I think they will or the way I plan for them to go. I'm sure this is probably a good thing but, sometimes you just want what YOU want. I'm not complaining, just typing.

Where'd all my energy go???

i feel so freakin drained!!! I don't have the energy to do anything and this weather isn't helping. I'm not complaining though, i love-love-love the rain, I just wish I could cuddle up in my bed with some yummy tea, a good book and nice blankie.

I have my very last final tomorrow and I don't feel prepared at all. I'll probably be up all night going over notes, reading chapters over and trying to soak it all in. I wish I didn't have to go to work tomorrow but there is just way too much that needs to be done to call in.

Gotta get back to studying. I'll be fun again S O O N!!!!

Busy, Busy, Busy

I've been so busy this past week. I haven't had an opportunity to blog at all. Thanksgiving was wonderful. I had such a great time with my family. I went to my dad's during the day and ate dinner with my my mom's side of the family at my brother's house. We had way too much fun being crazy, playing Monopoly and watching Christmas movies. I think we've started a new tradition.

I started Christmas shopping about two weeks ago and haven't bought a thing since. ugh! Last year I did most of my shopping online but that's so not the case this year. I haven't really gotten into the Christmas spirit yet. Dunno why. Maybe because this is my first year without a tree :( I think I might buy a tiny one this weekend. We'll see.

I heard that I'm getting a dog for Christmas (shhhh, I'm not supposed to know). Dunno how I'm going to convince my roomie.

Speaking of roomie's, might be moving out with Jessica in February but nothing has been confirmed thus far. That would be fun, fun, fun though (although my boyfriend would NOT be happy..lol)!!!

School has been craaaazy. Thankfully, I am almost done. I need to catch up on my reading this weekend and start studying for Finals..big whooooomp.

My charger died. It just stopped working so my phone has been off all day. I'm going to get another one on my lunch. I feel so disconnected.

Ummm I paid $4.35 for a Grande Peppermint Mocha this morning. That will be the last time. Starbuck's has gone crazy. I love me some coffee but $4.35??!?!?! That's just ridic. I will be purchasing Peppermint Mocha flavored liquid creamer tonight at my local Ralph's thankyouverymuch.

I'm soooo hungry. I really want Chipotle but I had In n Out last night so that's definitely out of the question.

I have been in such a great mood this week (maybe that's why this week has just flown by)!!!

I'm getting excited about my January trip to Mammoth woot woot!!!

Okay, gotta get back to work. I have about 20,000 Expense Reports to do (another big whooomppp).

xo

just found a new blog that i'm in love with! Her style is amazing. Everything looks good on this girl. Anyways, while i was browsing I found these cute Minnetonka boots and immediately fell in love. They're so cute. I think they'll will be cute with skinny jeans, a v-neck and a grandpa cardigan. They'd even work with leggings and a long plaid shirt. I bought them from Zappo's last night and should have them by tomorrow woot woot! (i hope mine don't look that long though..haha)

Minnetonka look by britsaprincess

Weekly Random

You have got to watch The Real Housewives of Atlanta. AHHHH, I love this show. I'm addicted. I love these women. I think Kim is my favorite. Actually, no I like Deshawn and I like too the one that's married to the football player and Sharee looks soooo good for her age. I think it's safe to say that I like all of them except for NeNe. She's a lil' too much and who the freak is Big Poppa?!?! ugh, the mystery of this guy is so intriguing. I NEED to go to Atlanta. I have a feeling that since I loved Houston, I'll be head over heels in love with Atlanta. Anyone wanna buy me a plane ticket?

okay moving on, so I think it's pretty obvious that I don't take my blog too seriously. I really blog for myself. Once I start taking my blog more seriously and incorporating pictures and such, I'm pretty sure that I'll turn it into a book and keep it for memories. I'd love to be able to show my future children exactly what life was like for me. What I enjoyed, what I was interested in, what my life consisted of at the age of 23. I like documenting certain stories, and feelings and current events. So I thought I think I'll document what happened to me on Saturday night. It was pretty funny & VERY cute and I'm sure one day when I'm old and gray (omgeez one day I will be old in gray!!!), it'll make me smile.

So, I think I mentioned last week that I was having a rough time with my boyfriend. We weren't even arguing about anything I was just being really bratty towards him and I couldn't quite figure out what the deal was. I slept over the night of the election because we wanted to watch it together but he ended up getting really sick so, I ended up bringing him soup and orange juice and all the other goodies you need when you're sick. We didn't really spend time together though because he was sleeping on and off and I was super into the election. This weekend we hadn't really planned on seeing eachother. I had plans on Friday and he was in a wedding on Saturday. I didn't really want to go to the wedding because we're not really good friends with them. In fact, I've never even met the bride...lol...I just realized this.Plus, I didn't know ANYONE else that was going and I didn't want to be all by myself during the wedding and then have to eat all by myself during dinner. So anyway, I figured I wouldn't see him this weekend. He called me after the wedding and I still had my stupid lil' (actually it was big) attitude. I was being really short with him and just didn't feel like talking. We hung up and I was even more upset after talking to him.

10 minutes later he texts me and tells me that his best friend's mom was going to come by and drop of some papers for him to sign at my house. Mind you, it's close to midnight at this time. It didn't seem out of the ordinary though because I was expecting to pick up the papers from his best friends mom earlier that day, I just never got around to it. He told me she was on her way home from a dinner party and would stop by. I immediately go off and tell him that I'll pick them up from her tomorrow and I proceed to tell him that he should have called me first to ask me if it was okay. He brushes me off and tells me that she's on her way and there's nothing he can do. I'm so pissed! I stay up waiting for her in my pajama's looking a HOT MESS.

20 minutes later his best friends mom calls me and says she's outside, I walk outside to let her in and who do I see standing there with the biggest smile on his face still dressed in his wedding attire with roses in hand? MY BOYFRIEND!!! I was so shocked. I hate surprises and I ruin damn near every surprise because I ask so many questions. I'm that annoying person that needs to know every single details and interrupts you in the middle of your story-telling to ask 100 questions. Anyways, he is the only person who can pull one over on me. I felt like a huge brat. He said he knew the only reason I was acting like that was because I missed him, and he was right. I did miss him. I definitely need to work on my attitude but, It makes me feel really good to know that he loves me despite all of my flaws.

So there is my funny story. I love it. I love making memories. As I grow older, I'm starting to realize that memories are what life is all about. I constantly have to remind myself to live in the moment and cherish every single moment. You never ever know what could happen and it's ridiculous to waste energy on negativity, bratty attitudes and things that really shouldn't matter.

I CUT MY HAIR!!!

Saturday I chopped off about 6 inches of my hair. not all over, but I now have layers which is super funny because i just grew my hair out so it was finally one length..(except for my bangs) and i chopped it all off again! I kinda freaked out but, it's just hair, it'll grow back. I'm at work so I don't have a picture of what my hair looked like this time last year but it's completely different. I just took a couple of pics to send to Audrey so I thought I'd share. I still have my length but it's definitely shorter. I'm worried about what my ponytails are going to look like.

While we are on the topic of hair, let me just share one of my pet peeves. I hate being asked if my hair is my "real" hair. It's so rude and inappropriate. Yesterday my boyfriend and I were picking up pizza and this girl complimented my hair. I of course thanked her and turned around to finish talking to my boyfriend. When we were leaving she said "Can I ask you something, where do you buy your hair?" my boyfriend started cracking up. I didn't even respond, I just kept walking. Don't ask someone if their hair is "real" or not. That is extremely lame. For the record, in case you are confused readers, it is indeed my real hair, no tracks, no glue, no sewing--just scalp and crop, thank you daddy!


p.s.--i have no make up on so be nice & i have NO clue why my noise looks that big in the second pic. nose job maybe?! annnnd i was turning my arm backwards, so it kinda looks flabby. oh gosshhh, this is ridiculous, JUST LOOK AT MY FREAKING HAIR K?! THANKS!

p.s.s-- please excuse the fact that the text is two completely different fonts and sizes. blogger is on drugs.

Unfortunately, I have not been taking my faith seriously. Why?? I'm really unsure. Any excuse would be lame so rather than think of something, I've chosen to recognize the fact that action is indeed necessary. In all honestly September and October went by way too fast. I feel like I have a lot of catching up to do.

So, I will catch up. I will rethink some things and get my priorities together. I'll make time for the things that have been put on the back burner and constantly remind myself just how important and mandatory these things are.

On another note, please pray for my dear friend Audrey. One year ago her brother Matt was jaywalking and was hit by a car. He was in a coma for two weeks. He will never be the same. He is alive and well but his mental capacity is nowhere near what it should be. This past weekend her father, her brother Matt and step-mother were driving. A fifteen year old boy riding his bike darted into the street. Her father hit him. He is in critical condition with a cracked skull. Audrey's stepbrother who is also fifteen goes to school and has two classes with this poor boy. I am so so sorry for her family and cannot imagine what they are going through.

Sadly, accidents and tragedies like this sometimes force us to put things into perspective. We all have problems, but in comparison to others, sometimes the problems we are facing are extremely minute.

Hope you all had a great weekend and a great week ahead. Can you believe it's already November 10th?! wth?! time is just flying by.

ahhhh, life is crazy kids. you never know what you're going to to get, what you're going to face or how you're going to deal with it. this has seriously been one hell of a week. so much bullshit @ work. working 50 hours a week and taking three classes is kicking my butt. things with my boy are just...ugh right now. sometimes i think that I'm too high maintenance and i just need to be by myself for the next 10 years. I've found myself fighting tears on a daily basis for the past four days. i thought Starbucks would cheer me up this morning BUT, it didn't :( Anyways, enough ranting.

Last night I had dinner with my dad and younger sister Bria. She is seriously the most adorable kid ever. Prior to me getting there my dad told me that they had stopped at Macy's to pick up a pair of shoes for her. They were only there to buy SHOE'S, nothing else. Well, Ms. Bria decided that she had to have a new dress for Friday and she put on a quite a scene at Macy's. My dad went as far as threatening to spank her and she asked him if she could get the dress after her "spankin'"..lol.

Here's a snippet of our hilarious convo about the situation:

me: "Bria, i heard about what happened at Macy's"

Bria: rolls her eyes and looks at dad. "Did Daddy tell you?"

me: "Nope I have a friend who works at Macy's and she saw you crying and throwing a fit"

Bria: "All I wanted was the dress".

me: "yea, but didn't daddy buy you shoes?"

Bria: "yes, but daddy should buy me EVERYTHING i want to make me happy".

ummm yes, I'd have to agree with you on that one Bria.

Shortly after that conversation, I found her in my dad's bed sleeping like a baby. I guess temper tantrums wear you out :)

and she does it again....

for some reason blogger is dumb and i can't upload the video (this happens way too often by the way), so check it out here.

Beyonce is freakin' amazing. Period.

and i thought I'd add this just for fun. Cess took a random pic of Jess and I on Fri night. I saw it and I immediately thought of this girl. I don't quite have it down yet, but i'm gonna talk to her about some "sexy face" lessons... ;)

p.s., i saw Hope Floats for the first time this weekend O M G, how cute is that movie?!?!?! I'm so naming my future daughter Bernice.

T G I F.....

I'm so happy the weekend is finally here. I haven't had a free weekend in a minute and i'm excited to have very little on my agenda. Tonight i'm going to Social with Cessy and Jess. Tomorrow I'm free like a bird and Sunday I am FINALLY going to my church. I most definitely need some R&R.

Hope you all have a great weekend.

xo

Decisions, Decisions

Wow, it's only Wednesday morning and I already feel like this week has been quite a long one. First of all, my anniversary (i feel so lame saying that cause it's not like we're married but, anywho) was fantabulous! Let me just say that not only do I hate surprises but it's very difficult to surprise me. Somehow my boyfriend managed to surprise me and it was all very, very sweet. Without going into too much detail, we had dinner at this lovely restaruant. He bought me this perfume that I blogged about some time ago and we spent some time at this spa. BUT, you wanna know what my favorite gift was?! The card! He NEVER buys cards for any holiday or special occasion except for Valentine's Day. Cards are so important to me. In fact, 9 out of 10 times I'm most excited about the cards I receive, not the gifts so I was super, duper happy that he had taken the time to pick out a nice card. It's the small things in life, right?!

Anyways, let's get to the decisions-- a while ago (like over a year ago) I applied for a job with a huge company in Fullerton (for those of you who don't live in So Cal, Fullerton is in Orange County, where my bf lives, I currently live in LA). At the time, my bf and I were toying with the idea of moving in together (in OC, not LA). I ended up getting a job at Fox (my last employer) shortly thereafter so we put the moving in together thing on hold. I never heard back from the huge company and I was so excited about my job at Fox that I never really thought about it.

Two weeks ago I received an email from the huge company. I initially thought it was spam and left it in my inbox unread until Monday. I opened one of the emails on Monday and lo and behold, the "big company" wanted me to come in on Wednesday for testing. Now, if I would have received this email maybe 6 or 7 months ago I probably would have been ecstatic but not so much now. The possibility of working for this company is very tempting. The fact that I'd be closer to my boyfriend and the $15,000 salary increase among other things would be great BUT, something inside of me is telling me now is not the right time. I have no clue what it is, but there is definitely a lil' voice in my head telling me not to go for it.

For starters I'd have to get my own place, which I'm not opposed to but I love my roommate and really, I like paying half of the rent versus ALL of the rent...lol and this is embarrassing but I'm afraid to live by myself. When my roommate is outof town, or comes home late, I sleep with my TV and light on...hahaha, yes--I'm lame. I could move in with my bf but he has 2 male roommates and I love them to death but would NEVER consider cohabiting with them. There are various reasons why but, the most important would probably be the fact that I would never feel like that was my home and I'm just not cool with that. **EDIT** Mel left a comment and brought up a really good point. We very well could look for places for the two of us but, his lease isn't up until March of 2009...so that's why we'd have to stay there together at least until March.

Secondly, although I don't know exactly what I want to do when I grow up (yes, in my mind, i'm still a teenager) I know that working for the "big company" is not it. Now don't get me wrong, the job that I'm currently doing is not something I could see myself doing for the rest of my life either but, I'm hoping and praying that this job will allow me to find what it is exactly that I want to do. I'm exposed to so much, and I do so much and I've learned so much in such a short amount of time and to me that is invaluable.

Lastly, the testing obviously interfered with my work schedule. Not to mention my boss has been traveling for over a month and today was his first day back in the office. It would have been kinda lame of me to take off at 11am and be out for the rest of the day. I'm big on signs and all of the signs in my opinion were pointing to not going to the testing. On the other hand most of my friends and family members thought that I should at least give it a try and see what happens. So now, I'm praying that I did the right thing and don't have any regrets.

Obviously I love my boyfriend and the distance thing is getting old especially since we went from seeing each other every single day to now seeing each other only on the weekends and not even every weekend at that. I just want to make my decisions solely based on me and what's good for me. Had I accepted the position, I most definitely would have felt that I had done so primarily because it was closer to him and that's not okay. He has a really great job that he loves in OC, so that's where he is. His family is there and I have to admit, he's happier and he's changed so much (for the better) since moving there so, I'm happy for him. I have a job that I like (not love..lol) and my friends and family are here so, this is where I am and I guess that's just how it will be, for now.

Geesh, blogging can be so therapeutic..lol. I feel much better now that I've gotten all of that off my chest. Hope you all are having a wonderful week.

xo

Happy Anniversary to my favorite boy
in the whole wide world. We met through a mutual friend in a parking lot, had dinner that same night @ Denny's (lmao) and have been inseparable ever since. I wouldn't have it any other way.

xo-pink.

Your lips, your love, your smile, your kiss,

I must admit, it's a part of me

You please me, complete me, believe me,

Like a melody

Your soul, your flow, your mouth, your truth, is simply proof

we were meant to be

But the best quality--

is that you're loving ME for ME

***Loving Me For Me- Christina Aguilera

H O U S T O N

As I promised, here are some pictures from my short trip to Houston. We flew out on Thursday morning (way too early) and got there at 1:00pm. Technically, I was only there for 3 days because we left early Sunday morning but, I had such a great time. I seriously cannot wait to go back.

Moving on.....

here's my bestie and I being silly. We had just landed and were on our way to the hotel. This is proof that I really am trying to finish this darn book!



Here's a picture that was taken while we were sitting in traffic on the way to our hotel. Yes, TRAFFIC. That is the only bad thing about Houston. The traffic sucks. Still not as bad as LA but bad nonetheless. Apparently it's not always as horrible as it was this weekend but, due to the fact that there were still streetlights damaged from Hurricane Ike, the freeways were jammed.

This was the view from our hotel room. We were pretty damn close to the Toyota Center (obviously) :) the view at night was AMAZING!



The pictures of the Bachelorette Party are way too X-rated for my sacred lil' blog. I'm not kiddin' either.

So, here we are at the wedding (Friday night). I love this picture mainly because I love my bestie's grandma Geneva way too much. She is seriously the funniest woman alive. I could go on vacation with her time and time again.

Aunt Tonya, Aunt Trina, Geneva & Me

(What you don't recognize me? Does my face look fat? mhmm, yea I know, I was bloated. Apparently my face and tummy were the poor victims.
Sorry, it was that time of the month.)

Friday night we went to some club in Downtown Houston. Totally different then the L.A. club scene but it was fun. I noticed two things @ this club. The first thing I noticed was that every single guy that tried to talk to me was 19 or 20 (the club was 21+ and they were checkin ID's but whatever) which was very disturbing - I blame it on the braces. Second thing I noticed, when someone would ask for my phone number and I just wasn't interested I'd use the whole "sorry, i have a boyfriend" thing - which IS the truth. The guys would then reply with "oh okay, he's a lucky guy, nice to meet you, blah blah blah". Guys in L.A. tend to say something along the lines of "what does that have to do with me?, "well, he's not here", "I'm trying to be your friend", "you can't have friends?" lol, it was quite funny.


Saturday we did a bunch of tourist-ty things. This is the morning I woke up feeling like death. I felt sick-ish on Friday but Saturday was the day the cold decided to infiltrate my healthy body. My throat was burning, my eyes were burning, my nose was burning, everything hurt.


We had a ball @ Hermann Park. The weather was gorgeous and we just sat around soaking it all in, laughing, talking and stuffing our faces with shaved ice, pickles, ice-cream and a bunch of other crap. Believe it or not, this was probably the highlight of my trip. I think you can tell. I'm sick as a dog, refused to put make-up on that morning or brush my hair for that matter and I still look extremely happy......



I don't know what it is about Houston that I fell in love with. I think it's a combination of a couple things. The fact that it wasn't L.A. The fact that people were extremely nice and everyone wasn't walking around with a chip on their shoulder. The fact that it seems to be extremely family oriented. There were families everywhere and I'm not referring to a mother and her children (which is still a family) but, i'm talking about mothers, fathers and children. There seemed to be tons of young married couples. There were black people, and black families and black businesses. People spoke english and I could understand them! Everyone was so damn polite and they have the cutest southern accents. It was just different and I loved it. So much so that I was actually sad to leave....



So there it is. My re-cap. Like I've said (probably 100 times), I had a great time. I plan on going back in December to see if I could really live there. Like foreal foreal.

decisions, decisions

Why is it that sometimes the things/people that you want so bad are the very things/people that are just bad for you?

Why is that you sometimes have no control over the very things that take place in your life; the very things that affect you the most?

Why is that we tend to let our fears stifle us from moving forward?

Why is that when we do finally move forward and we look back, we oftentimes wonder what took us so long in the first place?

I wish I had a crystal ball. I wish i could just see the future and what it will be. I wish I knew the right decision to make and I wish I would just make it and be done with it (for good). I wish I could make decisions solely based on what's logical versus making emotional decisions. Sometimes it is truly hard to have faith.

All About the 2 Me's

I've wanted to post these thoughts for a while now, I just don't know exactly how to write (or type) it all out so if it seems a tad bit all over the place or if you just don't understand it, I apologize.

Lately I've found myself struggling to just be me. There is part of me that wants to do everything the way I should. I want to be pleasant at all times, I want to learn how to ignore people that annoy me, I want to not have the urge to yell obscenities at the ridiculous drivers that populate the streets of LA every morning. I want to not flip my co-workers off under my desk when they annoy the crap out of me. I want to not have a bad attitude with my boyfriend for NO reason at all and I want to stop being so bothered by the behavior of some of my closest friends. I want to smile and say Good morning to every person I see in the morning on the way to the elevator. I wanna be able to trust everyone BUT, that's just not me.

I am very sarcastic. I often times say things I don't mean just because I'm upset. I hate losing an argument so I'll prolong any and every fight until I feel that I've won. I have a dirty mouth and I do try hard to censor it but sometimes (especially on the way to work) I will drop an F-bomb. I love all of my co-workers and they are all easy to work with but sometimes my natural reaction when being told what to do is to stick up my middle finger..even if it is under my desk. Even though my boyfriend doesn't always deserve the attitude he's a boy and I'm a girl, I have PMS once a month and he doesn't, I will one day birth children and he won't sooo, in my sick mind- he can deal with the minor attitude. I don't trust very many people and although I hate this, when someone does disappoint, I'm not as hurt as I would've been had I not expected it. My friends are my friends and I love them with all my heart but lately, I just feel like we may be drifting apart. Which is okay-it's sucks but it's okay. I'm not a morning person and I have to literally force myself to mutter a sentence if it's anytime before 9:00am.

Basically, that's me. Of course there is way more to me but those are the me's that I struggle with. Up until quite recently, I had never attempted to be a better person and although I'm very grateful that I have made the effort, sometimes I feel as though I'm putting up a front. Don't get me wrong, these are things I WANT to change, but am I taking away my personality by doing so? Is it no longer okay to be a brat some days because I'm a Christian? Am I going to hell because I called that lady who cut me off this morning a f*&$%#^ idiot? Am I a crappy friend because I'm totally at ease with walking away from certain friendships?

I'm in no way perfect, nor will I ever be. Being a Christian doesn't make me perfect nor will it ever. My religion does not define me at all but my relationship with Christ does. I shouldn't struggle to find "myself" or to be "me". The person I should struggle to be more like is Him. And trust me, it will be a struggle and just like any other challenge, I will have good days and I will have bad days -but I'm convinced that the more I struggle and the harder I try the easier it will become. Attempting to be more like Him will not help me find "myself"; I'm hoping that instead it will help me to become myself.

"For as he thinks in his heart, so is he" - Proverbs 23:7